http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=12Z6pWhM6TA
This might be the cutest thing I've ever seen. In life. Sad that my first instinct is to e-mail it to someone in California? I hope not.

I've been spending ridiculous amounts of time alone or hanging out with Debbie. Not as bad as you might think. I needed a break from life and time for self reflection. I decided to to take a break from education classes for the semester. There's no sense in taking a class when i don't want to be there...I'll get absolutely nothing out of the class or the practicum experience. I've been telling Debbie all my misgivings about going into teaching, and I think a break is precisely what I need. I finally got the gonads to tell my dad yesterday at dinner. From the way he looked at me, you would have thought I said that I was thinking of getting impregnated by a crackhead. He thinks that since I'm history major, i need to do history for the rest of my life in order to "use" my degree. He frustrates me to no end. I chose a "real" school, and "real" major, with the understanding that once I got a degree, I'd finally be free to choose what I wanted to do with my life. I want to try the hair thing, I want to live in a city and work in a coffee shop and take pictures, I want to not have huge responsibilities for a while. I gave up on the idea of going to VCU (of course, Alex had something to do with that) and majoring in theater and photography so that I could do something 'real' so he'd be proud of me. I can't live my whole life trying to make up for Brittany or Mom or anybody. Its time for me to live for myself.

I don't even want to go back to Mary Wash. Lucky Alex, he found a way out. He's moving to Tennessee and going to school there for his senior year. He'll be happy, I'm glad for him. Me? I'll stifle in Fredericksburg for a while more. Then its off to NYC or at least Richmond. Maybe I'll try to transfer to William and Mary...then i could work on my hair apprenticeship and go to school at the same time. There's really only one person at Mary Wash that i'd miss crazily, and thats Miss Marshmal, and she wants to go to UD. Who knows what will happen? Given my grades last semester, transferring probably isn't even such a good idea. Nobody will take me.

ps- does anyone else feel like there's something fishy with this US bombing in Somalia? It was just last week that I read a news report where all civilians were being forced to disarm...its sounding much like that scary gun propaganda that alex's dad had.