The internet scares me. Where else do you find the blogs of 39 year old men who weigh 450 pounds and have an affection for fuzzies and diapers? gross. Is this what the decline of our society will look like? Will we all turn into pasty fat nasty people with gross sexual fetishes and a dislike for fresh air and sunshine? I hope not.

I'm really tired of school. I feel so stagnant. I want my real life to start. I'm realizing that i'm okay with doing the bare minimum, just enough to slide through. I used to pride myself on doing the best all the time. Pshhh. If I had my way, I'd be so far away from Virginia right now. Jamacia? Paris? anywhere?

My family is driving me insane. The events of the past few days have decided it. I don't care if i'll be the only person I know living in fredericksburg, I'm not living in Williamsburg another summer. I'll go crazy. Fuck. I think i'm already there. So, if any of you awesome bammers are thinking of relocating, come here and share a place with me!

I'm really lucky. Really. I don't care what some people would say, I refuse to feel guilty about this. Something amazing has happened to me and I deserve it. I need at least one bastion of happiness and sanity in this world. Every day seems to be driving my whole family closer to the Jerry Springer show. So much for depending on them.

Woo me. I'm learning to be independent.