I'm wondering how much more shock my mind can take before I have a complete nervous breakdown.

At least theres no homework in the psychiatric ward.

The internet scares me. Where else do you find the blogs of 39 year old men who weigh 450 pounds and have an affection for fuzzies and diapers? gross. Is this what the decline of our society will look like? Will we all turn into pasty fat nasty people with gross sexual fetishes and a dislike for fresh air and sunshine? I hope not.

I'm really tired of school. I feel so stagnant. I want my real life to start. I'm realizing that i'm okay with doing the bare minimum, just enough to slide through. I used to pride myself on doing the best all the time. Pshhh. If I had my way, I'd be so far away from Virginia right now. Jamacia? Paris? anywhere?

My family is driving me insane. The events of the past few days have decided it. I don't care if i'll be the only person I know living in fredericksburg, I'm not living in Williamsburg another summer. I'll go crazy. Fuck. I think i'm already there. So, if any of you awesome bammers are thinking of relocating, come here and share a place with me!

I'm really lucky. Really. I don't care what some people would say, I refuse to feel guilty about this. Something amazing has happened to me and I deserve it. I need at least one bastion of happiness and sanity in this world. Every day seems to be driving my whole family closer to the Jerry Springer show. So much for depending on them.

Woo me. I'm learning to be independent.

Another lovely weekend.

Was a drunk fool Friday night, saw a movie Saturday.

Spent every morning in his arms.

Happy.

A relationship disagreement may turn your day inside out, even if it was running so smoothly. This is a topsy-turvy day anyhow, with sudden changes in your plans flashing like lightning. Try not to bully your way through any apparent resistance, for you might have to learn the hard way if you don't respect the boundaries as they appear. A delicate dance of balance is now required of you.

eerie.

you suck, sir. one day you'll realize what an ass you're being.

broken.

am i really a slut?

not necessary.

you asshole.

Had a lovely weekend in DC.

Had delicious sushi, went to the zoo, drank corona, didn't sleep enough.

Giraffes are cool.

Sleep is overrated.

School is starting to set in. I'm not gonna have as much free time. Damn you history and your primary sources!!!

Its a glooomy gloomy day. It makes me depressed.

I want to go to the zoo. I never did over the summer. :(

I also want to go to the melting pot and midieval times.

I have a job interview at 4 30. wish me luck.

Had a wonderful weekend at home. Drinking with Sam and Rebecca and everyone is probably my favorite thing to do ever. Meeting an awesome boy who listens to my drunk rambling and laughs at my jokes is even better. (Jon is awesome, btw)

Some dude punched Rebecca. wtf. Rednecks suck.

I lost my clove cigarette. I was saving it for a special occassion, and I just decided what the occasion would be. And now its gone.

I have a job interview tommorrow at Caribou Coffee. Sweeet. I'm going to rock it so hard.

I hate how when I'm at school, I work real real hard and get all this stuff done and feel totally accomplished...until the next day. Then the process starts over again. Woo.